What happens when life gives you a second chance? Discover Suzanne’s extraordinary journey from surviving cancer to reclaiming her life with resilience and hope. This episode kicks off with Suzanne sharing the uplifting news of being declared no evidence of disease and her anticipation for reconstructive surgery. Despite some technical glitches, we've creatively integrated TikTok clips from Suzanne's page to ensure you don't miss a beat. Listen as Suzanne reflects on the emotional impact of her therapy sessions, including a touching compliment from her therapist that celebrates her strength and compassion as a parent. This chapter is a testament to the power of therapy and the unwavering support from friends.
Next, we tackle the harrowing reality of overcoming a toxic marriage, guided by the themes of intuition, self-worth, and resilience. Suzanne opens up about the psychological toll of gaslighting and infidelity, and the crucial process of rebuilding life after such an ordeal. This segment is a heartfelt discussion intended to inspire those facing similar challenges to seek help, trust their instincts, and boldly start anew. With personal anecdotes and valuable insights, we emphasize the importance of supportive friends and the courage it takes to transition into a new career while raising children.
Finally, we explore the complexities of sharing personal stories on public platforms like podcasts and TikTok. Suzanne and I discuss the therapeutic benefits of openness, overcoming the fear of oversharing, and the ripple effect of bravery and authenticity. From handling social media dynamics to strategies for gaining followers, we share the emotional highs and lows of putting oneself out there. Stay tuned for tips on engaging viewers, maintaining authenticity, and the upcoming exciting segment, "Part Three." This episode is a blend of raw emotion, practical advice, and inspiring moments that underscore the power of storytelling and community support.
What happens when life gives you a second chance? Discover Suzanne’s extraordinary journey from surviving cancer to reclaiming her life with resilience and hope. This episode kicks off with Suzanne sharing the uplifting news of being declared no evidence of disease and her anticipation for reconstructive surgery. Despite some technical glitches, we've creatively integrated TikTok clips from Suzanne's page to ensure you don't miss a beat. Listen as Suzanne reflects on the emotional impact of her therapy sessions, including a touching compliment from her therapist that celebrates her strength and compassion as a parent. This chapter is a testament to the power of therapy and the unwavering support from friends.
Next, we tackle the harrowing reality of overcoming a toxic marriage, guided by the themes of intuition, self-worth, and resilience. Suzanne opens up about the psychological toll of gaslighting and infidelity, and the crucial process of rebuilding life after such an ordeal. This segment is a heartfelt discussion intended to inspire those facing similar challenges to seek help, trust their instincts, and boldly start anew. With personal anecdotes and valuable insights, we emphasize the importance of supportive friends and the courage it takes to transition into a new career while raising children.
Finally, we explore the complexities of sharing personal stories on public platforms like podcasts and TikTok. Suzanne and I discuss the therapeutic benefits of openness, overcoming the fear of oversharing, and the ripple effect of bravery and authenticity. From handling social media dynamics to strategies for gaining followers, we share the emotional highs and lows of putting oneself out there. Stay tuned for tips on engaging viewers, maintaining authenticity, and the upcoming exciting segment, "Part Three." This episode is a blend of raw emotion, practical advice, and inspiring moments that underscore the power of storytelling and community support.
Hi and welcome to Love you. Miss you. Bye, I'm Christy Chanel and I am back with part two with Suzanne. Now, this ended up being more of an update as to where she is now and how she was feeling after the episode aired, because we filmed two parts. Only the first recording uploaded in full. The second recording did not fully upload on her end and it only taped like a minute of the second portion. The second portion is the connection between part one and part two, so it's her cancer journey. I do not have any of that footage.
Speaker 1:
That being said, I did want to release a part two, so this is what I was thinking. I'm pulling some TikTok clips from her actual page that can give you a little bit of an update as to where she is now. In July she is having her reconstructive surgery and I'm thinking we'll have her back after that and we'll really take you from the end of part one to the updated version of everything that happened in between. I know that that is the whole point of that episode was to actually talk about that, and I don't know why things happened the way they did, but in my mind it's supposed to happen this way and we are supposed to talk to her a third time because, you know, suzanne's actually become a friend of mine, so I think she'll be all for doing another podcast episode with me and uh well, I just like to hang out with her now. So I hope you enjoy this episode as much as I did and fall in love with her Like I did. Let's go the Lovey Mishy by Podcast.
Speaker 2:
Let's inspire each other. Okay, we're here and I have a lovely pink gown Just waiting. I just want you guys to see what an amazing supportive husband I have, who sits here at all of my appointments. Real men wear pink. That's right they do so. The news is that I am no evidence of disease. I am beyond thrilled. It is a huge relief. I have been dreading going to this appointment and now they will follow me. Twice a year. I will see my cancer surgeon in December and then for the rest of my life, once a year, I will have all of my breast exams done out at UAB. I need to have a bone density scan done because of my hysterectomy and being in menopause and not being able to take hormones. They want to make sure that little old me doesn't get osteoarthritis. As of June 3rd 2024, I will be considered a one year cancer free.
Speaker 1:
We're originals, right? We don't fall into a specific category.
Speaker 3:
There's nothing wrong with that. It's so funny that you said that because today I had therapy and I couldn't wait to tell my husband because my therapist he's this, this adorable little, probably 40 something year old Southern man, but he doesn't fall in line with the herd, he doesn't like the Bible thumping, beating over the head. You know, you must be Christian, you have to go to church, you're going to go to hell, all that stuff. And he just tells me all the time how I tickle. You know he's like you just tickled me to death, you know, and I'm like I tickle. You know he's like you, just tickle me to death, you know. And I'm like what does that mean? He's like you make me laugh and I'm like oh, okay, that's a cute saying. But he told me today. He said I have to tell you something and I said what? And he said you're one of a kind and I said don't make me cry. Like what do you mean? And he said but for what? And he said because you're outspoken, because you don't let anybody pull anything over on you, because you've taken on a child that's not yours and made her your own, and he wishes that he has more parents do for their kids, what I do for my bonus daughter.
Speaker 3:
And I just started to cry and I said I don't know how to take that. I'm so bad with compliments. And he said just know that I wish I had more parents like you, I wish I had more patients like you. And he said I don't say that much about Northerners. But he said I really enjoy having you as a patient. And I said well, I just cried and I'm like I. That means so much to me and it carried with me through the whole day. You know, to know that somebody sees me for who I am and allows me to express myself, um, and will tell me if I'm wrong, and that's fine. But, like he lets me be who I'm feeling in that moment, and that's why I so truly believe in therapy for anything, for anything in your life. And he really made me feel something today, so that was great.
Speaker 1:
I have never been to therapy in my life and yes, but I know how good it can be for a lot of people. Um, I, I was more of a hold it in type of person. I don't want to share my pain with somebody else because I feel like a burden doing that. You know, just just your friend. And so I have friends, luckily, that are like whenever I pull back, they come forward because they know I'm doing that because I don't want to be a burden, and you know. And so that's why, talking on the podcast, it makes me realize that the right people are in your life for a reason you know. They want to support you, they want to be there for you and it's not a burden. And if it is a burden, they're not your people.
Speaker 3:
Right, so it's taken me a little while.
Speaker 1:
Yeah.
Speaker 3:
I have to unload emotionally because one day you may just lose it and have like, not you, but I'm saying like you, as, like you know, like you know people, you may just have a breakdown, you know, and sometimes you have to be able to have at least one person that you can trust. You know the keeper of your secrets, you know somebody that would never betray you. Um, I feel like that's really important to have, because there are a lot of people out there that suffer in silence. And that was my whole life, christy. Like I suffered in silence.
Speaker 3:
Nobody ever knew about my ex-husband and the cheating and all that went on, except for my family. I never told anybody. So whenever people saw us together, they all that went on, except for my family. I never told anybody. So whenever people saw us together, they thought that everything was great. And then when I finally, the day that he left and I finally let everybody know, they were like what? You never said anything. We had no idea.
Speaker 3:
I said because I was protecting myself from the embarrassment, because people would say why didn't you leave? Why'd you stay? Well, I didn't have anywhere to go. Where was I going to go? I have three kids. I didn't have a job, I was a stay-at-home mom. Where was I going to go?
Speaker 3:
So I stayed, you know, and I didn't want to be judged and I kept it private because I didn't want people to judge him and then say, well, it must be your wife Like you're screwing around. It must be your wife Like it's never, ever, ever, ever. That's like that's a huge thing that I've said to people. I don't care what kind of wife you are. You could be the biggest bitch on the planet, you could be lazy and it could be dishes piled up and laundry falling out of the washer. That is no excuse for anybody to put their hands on you or for anybody to cheat on you ever and destroying your children and their lives in the process.
Speaker 3:
Because my kids were never the same. My kids were never the same after he left. They were never the same. Every time they would see me crying and them begging him to please stop, please stop hurting mommy, please stop making mommy cry. It was bad. It was bad, but he the one that he left. For that I had said previously that she was 15 years younger. She did me a favor because I would have never been able to leave. You know I got married and I took my vows seriously you know, for better or for worse, you know, till death do us part.
Speaker 3:
Like I took it seriously and I wanted to leave every day of my life, but I couldn't because I didn't have a place to go. And when he said he was leaving, like I said to you last time I yes, I felt like the wind was taken out of my sail, but I was so relieved that it was finally over.
Speaker 1:
Yeah, and now you have the wisdom and knowledge to be able to look back and see all the things that you couldn't see while you were in the middle of the storm. So you know, looking back, I like to think, anytime a traumatic relationship has ended, that you take something from it and learn something. What would you say you learned from that situation now?
Speaker 3:
You know, looking back. God, that's a hard question because I know that I don't have to Give me something positive Besides your kids, besides your kids, besides my kids, that I was worth more than he ever gave me, that I deserved better, that it wasn't my fault and the reason why he said he left was because I nagged him and didn't trust him. Well, I didn't trust you, sir, because you were cheating on me the entire marriage. I told him if that's all you had to complain about, you're very lucky.
Speaker 1:
We're taking only positive, we're only talking positive, the positive, out. You just said your gut was right. Basically the summary your gut was right. Basically the summary. So that's another thing that a lot of women repress and push down when their gut is screaming at them that this is not where they should be, that they're cheating. And then they have these suspicions and they get gaslit and think they're crazy. And the husband is telling them that they're crazy.
Speaker 3:
Right? Or what they do is they try to turn it around and say you're cheating on me, aren't you? You're crazy, right? Or what they do is they try to turn it around and say you're cheating on me, aren't you? You're cheating, and it's like what? Where are you getting this from? So my therapist back home and the therapist that we were going to for marriage counseling, said that when a cheater is cheating, whether they know it or not, their guilty conscience comes out. They can't keep it down, they can't hide it. It's subconscious and they will try to put the blame on the partner, saying that they're cheating to make themselves feel better about what they're doing.
Speaker 1:
And I'm like, no, you're not going to put this on me, anybody that's going through this now, right now, and they're watching you and they're hearing that you got past it and you overcame it and now you know that you should have listened to your gut. What would you tell people listening to you right now and they're suffering in this situation?
Speaker 3:
You may not feel like there's a way out, but if you have somebody that you can turn to, who knows what you're going through, tell them and they'll help you. Because at that time I had a best friend who had no idea and she said if you would have just told me, I would have grabbed you and your kids and the dogs and you would have come and stayed with Mike and I. But I never told anybody because I was too ashamed. So don't suffer in silence, don't feel that it's anything that you've done, because it's not you.
Speaker 3:
A cheater is going to cheat, and once a cheater, always a cheater. It's kind of like when an animal gets a taste for blood. They know what that taste tastes like and they want to go back for more. And when they keep getting away with it or you keep putting up with it, the more they're going to do it. So you've got to find your way out, because otherwise, in the blink of an kids two teenage girls and an almost 11 year old boy trying to say oh my God, what am I going to do? Who's going to want me? How am I going to survive? Look at me now Like I stayed home for 17 years to raise my kids because, like I said last time, I couldn't work cause he was gone for work. But I knew in my heart that I had this passion for caring for people and that's what I wanted to do. I know that I'm not smart enough to be a nurse, because math is not my jam, so I just said we'll stick with medical assisting Still don't say that yes, you are, yes, you are.
Speaker 3:
I would probably just dose somebody incorrectly by accident.
Speaker 1:
Okay, you're good, Don't go. Don't go into that field. Warning.
Speaker 2:
You just prosecuted yourself.
Speaker 3:
So figure out my life all over again in the forties. And I did, and I made a career for myself and I went to school. And because I wanted my daughters to see that you don't need a man to take care of you, you can do this yourself. And I tried to teach. You know, not only my son had to be a man, but I tried to teach my daughters that go to school, get a career I don't care if it's trade school, I don't care if it's college. Go to school, get a career, I don't care if it's trade school, I don't care if it's college. Go to school, make something of yourself, have your own money in the bank so you don't ever have to rely on a man the way that I did with your father for 23 years and now I have to start my life all over again.
Speaker 3:
That was hard, that my daughters had to see that and my son was seeing the wrong example of how a man should treat a woman and I saved a screenshot from him one day when I first moved down here and he said I want you to know that it was never you. I know that it was never your fault. You were the best mom, and I'm sorry for everything that you ever had to go through, and that he promised he would never treat a girl the way that his father treated me, and I just lost it. I was like that's my boy.
Speaker 1:
Let's take people through. I know how nervous you were when I first asked you to come on the podcast. Okay, we walked through it together, normal, completely normal. Now that you've done it, you trusted me. You trusted me and I put it out there. How did you feel? I know you were nervous, like premiere day on YouTube. How did you feel watching it? Like what were some emotions going through your mind.
Speaker 3:
Well, first of all, it's, you know, like you can watch your own TikTok videos, like that's normal. But to see yourself like on a YouTube channel, knowing that it's almost like a little miniature TV screen, I don't know. It was like I had stepped outside of myself. I'm like, oh my God, that's me. And then I realized that I was so nervous that I made so many flubs. I'm like, oh my God, I said my grandfather died of breast cancer. It was my grandmother. Like I had the years all wrong and I'm like, oh, I sound like a complete idiot, but I felt comfortable because you weren't.
Speaker 3:
It was no, there was no pressure, and you know you had said to me it was anything that you don't want me to add. I'll make a note and I'll take it out. Um, if there's something that you want to discuss, we can discuss it. Something you don't want to discuss, we don't have to discuss it. For me it was therapeutic and honestly like, while I was sitting here putting my makeup on today I listened to it again just to remember what I had said. So I don't repeat myself because you know, menopause brain, I tend to do that. But John asked me before he's like, are you nervous? And I'm like, no, not at all.
Speaker 3:
Like I adore Christie, you know, like I think that, yes, it's very easy, and you know, I know that people are like weirded out about sharing their personal business. But then you're on TikTok sharing your personal business with all those people that are watching. So it's really the same thing. You're just talking one-on-one with someone back and forth instead of, like you know, typing a message and hitting send. So it's really it's different, but the same. But um, it was, it was fun. I had fun because I think you're a cool chick. So that's why I keep saying you guys got it. You got to hit up Christy. You got to hit up Christy. She's looking for Gen X women.
Speaker 1:
Well, the crazy thing is, I saw your video the next day after you'd listened and I just I don't know you had this glow about you. It was just peaceful and I was like she freaking did it. She freaking did it. She got in front of the mic even though she was terrified. She was afraid she would overshare. She was afraid because you, you know, you just get into your story and we're having a conversation and that's what you want to do. But then the the biggest step for me was when you're like I'm going to put this on Facebook and you had already told me that's where your friends are, that's where your family is, so for you to take it and put it there, that was you stepping into your power. So when you told me that, I was so happy for you and I want to know what were the reactions.
Speaker 3:
So, um, some of my friends, um, one had said I never knew. I've known you since high school. I've known you since middle school. I had no idea about any of that and I said, because I never told anybody, um, some were like that was so brave of you to share that. Um another friend said I can't believe you had the balls to do that, like because you know, on when I and then my friend Rob, the one that I spoke about, who is getting married, I uh I texted him and I said listen, you need to listen to my podcast Cause I spoke about you. And he's like well, I don't have time. I said I talked about you, you, you better go listen. So he, he said I talked about you, you better go listen. So he said all right, fine, because he's afraid of me.
Speaker 1:
He said he's like all right, all right, he's like okay.
Speaker 3:
So he listened and he goes oh my God, you really did talk about me. I said, yes, I did, because we were talking about Bumble and how you know you were talking about, like, getting back out there, and I said how I pushed you to get on Bumble and look, now you're getting married, and, um, he, he loved it. He texted me the other day when is part two? And I said I'll let you know.
Speaker 3:
The thing that's kind of that makes me sad, though, is that, like, my family didn't listen to it. I don't know why. Which family? Your sisters, my sisters? Um, that's really all I have. I told you I don't talk to my dad. So I said to my sisters and I don't want to push anything on them, um, so you know, they didn't listen, which is kind of disheartening because I wanted them to hear my side of things and how I felt. But that's okay. I mean, they have their own lives, you know, they've got kids and, um, you know, it is what it is.
Speaker 3:
I mean, there are a lot of things that, um, I would love to share on TikTok, but I am afraid because, um, you know, people make backup accounts and I have to, like, watch my wording, um, for like a situation I'm going through right now, like I, there's two people in my life that I'm not speaking to and um, I know they have backup accounts and I don't need them coming and pretending to be on a different profile and attacking me and saying, cause I, mentally I wouldn't be able to handle that because I would know where it was coming from, and so when I came and spoke with you I felt like, well, they're really not going to know, so but I did post your clips and stuff to my TikTok so you know, maybe they'll listen, maybe they won't, but I don't know. I just felt like here was easier because I I didn't have like this little timer letting me know that like I'm running the clock, like I always do, you know, on TikTok, here I felt like I could say what needed to be said and you would just take out all the things that needed to be taken out. But I think that you made it very easy and you made it very comfortable and it wasn't like I didn't feel pressured into discussing anything and it felt therapeutic and cathartic in a way to be able to say the things that I said about what my father put me through, because I can't say it on Facebook, because one of his brothers is on my Facebook and know my family is on there and um, I didn't need it to get. Yeah, I don't need any of my TikToks and stuff to get back to them.
Speaker 3:
And then it just becomes a whole big you know, oh, suzanne is causing family drama, kind of thing, so, but a lot of my friends were like, oh my god, like I can't believe that you did that, and when is part two? And you know, and my one friend who I've known since I moved from Brooklyn to Long Island I've known her since I'm seven years old messaged me the other day. She said I'm sitting here listening to your podcast and I feel like you're sitting right next to me. She said it's so amazing to hear this from you and I was like, thank you, you know.
Speaker 1:
I have uh, she co-hosts on a different podcast that I have and we she opened up and about her family trauma. It's it's one of. There's a part one and part two. Her name's Phoebe and she opened up about a lot of deep, dark family trauma that she had and people her friends started reaching out to her saying we love you. We had no idea you were going through that and it has been so therapeutic for her no-transcript and they feel better getting that out.
Speaker 3:
Imagine what going to see a therapist would do for them. I go every other week, so you could do once a month, you could do once a week. You know, it just depends on your situation and what your therapist needs. But if talking to you for an hour makes somebody feel that good, seeing a therapist would make them feel even better. I truly believe in therapy. I think it's a great thing. You just have to find the right fit. Sometimes you know you have to interview them and be like I don't like this guy or I don't like this chick, and, but I like my therapist because he gets me and he doesn't mind that I'm from New York. He gets a kick out of me.
Speaker 1:
So I had a really bad interview experience of somebody that had a lot of followers on YouTube. Okay, it was horrendous and and I was actually afterwards shook by the experience it was awful and I was like I do not. I never want to interview somebody that is that type of person, because that's not why I do it. I don't care about how many followers you have, you know. And then I interviewed you and my gut intuition was telling me you need to talk to the real people and I interviewed you and it was such a good experience for me and and I think it helped propel me into the journey of trying to find more people Not everybody's going to be Suzanne.
Speaker 2:
I know there's nobody like me.
Speaker 1:
Right, but maybe somebody will be cool. You know, maybe I'll experience. So I have another interview on the first and then the week after I had mentioned today on my TikTok that there was somebody that I reached out to myself which I'm an introvert so it's hard for me to do it and she responded today and said she'd love to do it and she's got about 19,000 followers on TikTok. So to me and we're like I can't even get 400.
Speaker 3:
What?
Speaker 1:
happened with that? By the way, you were like I had 400 and then they disappeared.
Speaker 3:
You know, christy, I don't understand, I, you know, um, I never ask anybody. You know, like, I've asked you like what do I do? Like, how do I get people? And I've tried and I've said please like, like and share my videos. I'm just trying. I'm not trying to be an influencer, I'm not trying to have 20,000 followers, I'm really not. I couldn't care less about being like, you know, going viral. That's not why I'm there, but I feel like if somebody could just take the time to like and just click share video, repost my video, that video may just hit that one person that it needs to hit video may just hit that one person that it needs to hit. So that day, that video that I had made when I had, I had reached out to Jen, who I've mentioned, um, that you know with her that she has an amazing story and I just adore her um, her and another woman, stacy, that I follow. They both have very large platforms and I messaged them both and I said I've never asked anything of anybody. Could you please take this one video for me and just repost it please? You guys have so many followers. This is important for me, please get it out there. And Stacy said no problem, I've got you. She reposted it.
Speaker 3:
I have all of my stitches, duets, like all of that stuff turned off because I see what goes on on TikTok. It's terrifying to see, like if someone was to take my video and then like attach it to theirs and then start attacking me from what I'm saying. I'm like I'm not doing any of that and plus, I can't edit. I know nothing of TikTok. I've I've said it so many times, I'm not TikTok savvy. What you get is what you get. Unless my bonus daughter was home to help me edit and she's like you've got a space here and a space here and a space here. She'll edit my video for me. But Jen wanted to stitch the video for me and I said I don't know what to do. She said turn your stitches on. When she stitched that video in a matter of a half an hour, 40 people in the matter of that night I woke up and I had over a hundred extra people. And I woke up and I was like good morning, tiktok. Like, hi, everybody Like. And I'm like what did I say?
Speaker 1:
What did I do, Wait? So how many people disappeared?
Speaker 3:
When she did that, I think I had 330 something people and then the next day I said to my husband I said, oh my God, I'm almost at like 500 people. Like this is this is freaking amazing. Like that's a lot of people. The numbers keep going down and my therapist told me stop worrying about how many people are following you, stop looking at when TikToks can do that thing Like this. Many people watch your video for 7.6 seconds.
Speaker 3:
I'm like nobody's watching my videos because if they did, they would know that I asked a question at the end or I said something of importance at the end. I've even said to people just fast forward, listen to me and fast forward. So each day since the other day, people just keep dropping off and I'm like I'll be honest. I think there's some people that unfollowed me because I claim to be a very proud Jew.
Speaker 3:
Get in the mud with anybody, but because I am Jewish, some people may have stopped following me because I say I'm a proud Jew and maybe they don't like that because of the world's climate right now. I think maybe people have stopped following me because I say that you know I'm not, you know I don't get on my knees and pray and I, you know that I'm not a religious person, I don't Christy, I don't know. Maybe it's because I talk too much and they're like I don't have time for this check, but I don't know. I said today I'm like, why don't you like me, like you know. And again my therapist said why do you care what people think of you? Even John said what do you care? And I'm like because I'm trying to reach the masses.
Speaker 1:
I will say this as an observer. You know I go and I try to figure out how I can reach more people, how I can get out there. Sometimes it's it's speaking when your voice shakes, and it happened recently, my last episode. It was very uncomfortable for me to speak about my views, um, about comments on that same video. It's still happening and I would just say the way for you, I think, to reach more people is the length.
Speaker 1:
If you could get a hook right in the beginning, if you're, I saw you doing your oatmeal. That's a good one, that's you being natural, yeah, and that's a good one. And, and, but it's it's, it's visually. It makes people stop. What is she doing, what? What is she doing? Or shaking something, or you know, saying something like, oh my God, dah, dah, dah, dah, and then they'll stop. The key is the time. People don't have attention spans anymore. You have to get them, get your message in and then shut it off, and that is hard. That's why editing is so important, so you can make sure that the chunks are are there. I could totally. I feel like I could help you, not that I haven't, not that I have a big following, but I know the game.
Speaker 3:
Yeah.
Speaker 1:
I know the game and, but I feel like I have an important message.
Speaker 3:
I have so much to say. I can't do it in two minutes so I don't know how else to do it. You know, and I don't have like a gimmick, you know, to like reel somebody in.
Speaker 1:
No gimmick, I just shoot from the cuff. No gimmick. That's why you keep people, because you're real, I'd say. But you have the people that want the message. They they're consuming information at such a quick pace that maybe when you start your video, you say, oh my God, this is going to be a long one. Go ahead, hit, hit the, whatever it's called you know double double time every time, every time.
Speaker 1:
Or put it on your video right in the beginning that says double time. You know what I mean. And then they'll be like okay, okay, people that do that, I do it. When they say that to me, I'm like okay, I don't know why I do, and I, I just started doing that recently and I'm like I like this because I consume it a long version and I can still get everything quickly. It's just, it's our nature.
Speaker 3:
The thing that's frustrating for me is that, like, if I follow you, I watch your video all the way to the end, like I don't just like, okay, I can't. I watch it all the way to the end, even if I'm watching it in fast forward, and that's why I'm like I know you people are not watching my videos to the end because you didn't hear what I asked you at the end of the damn video.
Speaker 1:
You're never going to get them to do it. Video. You're never going to get them to do it, you're never going to get them to do it. You're not trying. I really am, I know you. Just I know that too. I know whenever I get a lot of followers all at once, uh, they're going to fall off. I'm going to have a good chunk that falls off, and that's why I'm like, okay, I want to get to 10,000 and I know Nope, I want to get to 10,030, because I know I'm going to probably lose 10 to 15 to 20 people from there.
Speaker 1:
I'm worried about our. I'm worried about our video. I feel like we didn't even get to like the update for you.
Speaker 3:
I'm worried about our video. Well, I mean, I keep hitting the button that says low video storage.
Speaker 1:
Well, I mean, I keep hitting the button that says low video storage. Oh wait, we're getting to the good part, Part three. Thank you you.